Back to square one

I learned yoga with Lilias Folan's PBS program starting in 1991, and for many years that, and her workshops, was how I practiced. I taped her shows (remember VHS?) and used classes on cassette (remember those, too?). Now I'm using elaborate and customizable DVDs by other teachers because my work schedule's unpredictable. So's my energy level! Ironically I tried a Kripalu DVD this Monday morning, didn't work late and went to a class after work with Robyn Ross, the prana being much more plentiful in that setting.

I liked the Vinyasa Flow DVD I did which is "Rated #1 Kripalu Flow" according to the cover. Not sure who rated it. But it's a nice beach setting and I can kind of get past the young fitness model types on screen. This company also produced Heart Flow Yoga, an anusura class, coincidentally also #1. These classes in person are way too hard to do for me, they actually kinda stress me out, though once in awhile I'll still go to a class with Elena Brower who I found to be amazing 10 years ago and so did the rest of NYC. That DVD was decent as well.

It's nice to have a backup plan. It's really empowering. My own practice is not as buttoned up as it could be--sloth and torpor the buddhists call it, no?

I ordered a bunch more Kundalini DVDs. I think my sluggish system just responds well to the fieriness of it, even though restorative is what I truly want! I'll see how those turn out. One I ordered for a meditation. Buddhist meditation is not quite doing it for me, my monkey brain can't quite get into it. It doesn't feel like a right fit. So I've bought some different kind of CDS, also back to square one in that arena, pre-classes. And I'm going to a retreat with a new teacher tomorrow, so I'm still trying different things and making serious efforts even though my daily practice is more or less zoning out on the subway after finishing up the Wildmind online breath meditation course that was good structure while I stay away from in-person classes right now. What would life be without resistance? Unthinkable for me! Ah, practice.